Sitting on the same cold couch that my body had been laying on for the past week, I feel the life inside of me dying away in the silence.
Although everything seems to be better off than it was five years ago, I’m beginning to notice how one moment of sadness can linger and become days of internal agony. I don’t mean to sound dramatic — perhaps I am a little — but when you are caught up in your own irrational headspace, it is easy to perceive it as such.
How did I survive this everyday for two…
Music can express the massive array of emotions that we experience: happiness, sadness, anger, love, confusion, grief, excitement, numbness…
Music can explore and expand the boundaries of art, conveying different messages: through the use of different compositional techniques, manipulation of musical elements, and even disregarding musical conventions.
Music can accompany and help us through different stages in life: by being motivating and encouraging, or simply by being understanding.
Music can save lives: it can push people through their hardest times, and it can resonate with those who feel most broken inside.
Writing can express the massive array of emotions that…
I tell people that
knowledge is powerful.
And I know that
and felt it take over.
The young never
feared a thing until
they grew old
and have learned and been told:
the stories of the world,
the secrets we behold —
or simply how a lightning can strike
in the wrong places;
or how those we trust most
can riddle us by greed.
Certain truths we accumulate
through time and growth.
Knowledge is powerful.
It can bring out the best
in those who seek good in this world,
or the worst in those who don’t.
Then there are those…
There are many reasons why some may procrastinate, one of the main ones being that there are some things we just simply don’t feel like doing. So we put them off until later in the day, or week, or month…
Should we procrastinate? In most cases, no.
Do I procrastinate? Very much, yes.
I feel a temporary moment of relief when I do promise myself that I will get that one thing done later. Then later comes and… stress and anxiety hit.
I’m sure most people have been in this situation, perhaps a bit too frequently. …
Ocean breezes above the sand under feet
of crustaceans and me.
Tiny grains of the shore warm the cold
inside of the only being along this coast.
I stare over yonder—
over the calm sea.
Waves drifting near and afar,
the sound relieves my scars.
The wretched heart loosens
with each splash of water.
Though tears will show in the sand,
the sea washes them away.
You can cry me a river
and I cry you an ocean:
as I spend my day
by the sea of tears.
To all of those who do write for a living, I have great respect for you.
Even making a few dollars off of writing is no easy achievement, and it takes much experience and patience — as well as time and nuance — to be a writer. And for that, I applaud you.
But I also believe that you don’t need to be pursuing writing as a career in order to be a writer.
We see so many stories about how to be “successful” or how to earn thousands with writing. And, personally, they are more distressing than motivational.
the highs are high and i don’t want them to pass me by
just stay at my side till the end of time
the rush of emotions makes me elated
and the moment i’m in can never be beaten
i get lost in the whirlwind
of satisfaction and joy and perfection and power
until it has blown away
and i am left astray
as i fall down
now down low
i look up again
to where i was
before i collapsed
it was a rough fall
and wondering if i should call
it quits for this one
will i ever…
The title of this was originally supposed to be “A Habit of Thinking”, with a subtitle suggesting that you can change your unhealthy patterns of thinking — quite motivational, right? I even took 30 minutes finding a photo that (I believe) perfectly captures the idea of being lost in our thoughts:
You possess the Freedom of Choice, with your options laid out in plain sight.
Freedom never felt like anything to be afraid of — until the choices proved to be too much.
Perhaps there is such a thing as having “too many options.”
The weight of the decision can weigh you down, the plenty of roads you can go down…
You were never as indecisive as you are now.
With the unknown ahead of you —
What will it be like?
If I choose this instead of that,
here instead of there.
Or maybe another over yonder.
The Freedom of…
After a year of theaters being closed, musicals are finally announcing their Broadway reopening dates. As an actor and musical theatre enthusiast (I guess I’ll call myself that), I am beyond thrilled to hear this news.
Musical theatre is not just a form of entertainment — it sends important messages to its audience and the world. It tells a story and brings characters to life, those whom many of us can resonate with in some way. There are songs from musicals that have impacted and inspired many, including myself, and have become a part of our lives.
If you ever…
Call me A.X. — creator, and aspiring writer, actor, musician, anesthesiologist… who writes anything about everything.